im sick of life again.
tws pissed me off today.he got pissed by smth tt he usually doesnt get pissed off with.
sometimes i think tt im a super demandin person.
i can do things to people but people cant do the same back to me.
ahh,whatever.

i dunno what to do with uni application.
i refuse to talk abt it cuz i know mum will go on and on and on and it will jz piss me big time.
so even though they really need to know whts going on,i refuse to open my big mouth.
damn.
sometimes it really takes lots and lots of patience to interact with people nicely.
especially if that someone is somebody tt u look up to,love, and expect alot from.
i need to stop being bitchy.

physiotherapy,byebye.
vet,hopetosee you again.
i really admire ruimin for putting whatever she has and known for 17 years behind to go and pursue her dream.
tws thinks im chicken and i know he kinda looks down on me cuz i dun want to chase my dream.
well,sometimes,i think im chicken too.
but i cant leave my responsibilities behind just like that.
its irresponisible.

circumstances made me the person i am today.
like it or not,it has subconciously became a part of me.
as much as i dun believe in religion,i believe tt there is a god
and that he put me here for a reason.

maybe tts why mum doesnt help out.
tts why she gave birth to me first.
tts why dad always plays the role of mum.
tts why i was brought up by my grandparents.
tts why i gt a useless pig of a brother who does nothing except create messes.
i am here for a reason and i just need to follow my heart,
but sometimes,following ur heart is nt as easy as you think.
it means doing stupid things tt u will never dream of doing and that includes giving up ur dream.
well,to make myself feel better,
its nt giving up,just postponing.

i need guidance.
show me the light