miracles do exisit

miracles do exisit.

i was wondering how i was going to attend 3 activities at the same time.
but guess what, i managed to do it.

odac meeting was quite..sian
seriously, i thought ppl who joing odac will be people who really love outdoors.
a 1 day trip to johor to shopping?
pls.. get a life.
i was looking forward to rafting.
ah well, cycling will be fun too.

PA..so far ok la.
nthing much.
but cool, KR friend is there/^^

netball was super shiok.
i was feeling so tired and drained after everything and WHAMBAM
netball made everything better.
i felt so happy.
its such a liberated feeling.
and when we did tatics, it was quite funny to see ppl killing their own space.

went to check chem results after tt and WHAMBAM.
i knew i wont do well but still,
i didnt expect others to do that well uz i really found it difficult.
ah well,i've moved on.
i need to really make up for it.

i have so many things to do i just dont know how to organise it.

which leads me to the issue of god and religion.

do i believe that there is a god?
yes.

i admitted it to dawn even though i refuse to tell tee anything.
i dont want him to start converting me.

but anyways,
i do miss sajc.
where the holy spirit was all around(not literally)
and where i sorta believed that when u say a prayer, god is really listening.
i tried yesterday but it didnt work.
i want to believe.
i just cant though.
its not in me to put my heart and soul into smth tt i cannot see and dont know if it exisits.
hell, i dont even believe in somethings that i can see and kinda know its exisits,ie:tee
so its not so much of having a reason to not believe in something
but its having a reason to believe in it.

well,
i just miss the quiet time in sajc during morning worship and chapel.

i hope tt i believed tt god really exisits.
then, i will have more motivation to do whatever im doing.
i want to believe in the idea that god wont give u an obstacle that you cannot overcome.