eye candy:(

eye candy is getting wayyy too distracting.
why is he so cute?
i hvnt found smth tt i dont like abt him yet.
ok..maybe yes..rule no.1 remember?

had photoshoot today
and we wore our school uniforms.
OMG.
i miss the sa girl sey so so much.
i love my uniform.
i feel so confident wearing it.
how pathetic though..
i need a uniform to make me confident??
well...
i just love it.
wearing it made me feel so holy,
like i need to listen to chapel songs.

guess it really is quite nice to know tt whatever happens to you is all pre planned.

Trust in the lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding.
In all ways, acknowledge Him
and He will make your path straight.

boyfriend is right.
im trying to concentrate on too much things at one time.
and its secretly hurting my efficiency.
grandparents,mum,dad,dog,him,schoolwork,hall,uni friends,jc friends.
i have been neglecting quite a few things recently.

i guess that all along,i did know that i was being rather unfair to him.
he is really putting in more than me.
or maybe he just has more free time?
whatever the case, i know that he's beeen putting in more as compared to me.

i always say and think tt it would be fine if we break up.
but when he said tt he felt i wasnt putting in enough effort,
my heart kinda sank.
then,i realised tt he actually matters alot to me.
i was kinda afraid that he was hinting for a breakup.

boyfriend is right again.

one day,when she is gone,
you will regret thinking that she is naggy.
you will miss her smile and everything

he made me think again.
i havent been fair to mum right?
but sometimes,its hard to be nice to her.
esp when i see how double sided she can be.
im nice to nainai cuz im afraid tt i dont hv much time to spend with her anymore.
but what if something happens to mum tomorrow?
will i regret anything?
i think i will.
which is why i hv been trying REALLLY hard to be extra nice to her.
its not easy.
but i'll try.

i feel that my family is falling apart.
why is it so difficult for dad to stop the car for mum to buy breakfast for tt goon brother of mine?
dad doesnt calls her ah pui anymore.
sometimes, the silence is more difficult to endure than the names.

i caught up with dawn today.
i hv been trying to avoid msn cuz its detrimental to my efficiency rate of doing work.
i realised that she is going through alot now.
it would kill me to hv to give nis away.
i felt very bad for not being the friend that i was suppose to be.
instead of being there for her,
i avoided going online cuz i didnt want to get distracted.

friendship does not disappears.
it evolves.
if it isn't strong enough to evolve,
it becomes extinct.

remember that my girl.
even in the midst of family and studies,
be fair to your friends too.