i thought i was over it.until i asked u abt it again today.it felt weird.my heart was beating so fast,the way it was when i last asked u abt it.but i guess at least i can talk about it now.do you know,i didnt dare to start a facebook account cuz i was afraid that i would see pictures of the both of you together?

at least i've grown.i hope i have.i cant believe that it only happened 2 years ago.it seems such a long long time.

my heart still beats funny when i think about it.i hope the day would come where i will be able to laugh it off as a silly mistake you made.i still feel insecure occasionally.
but i cant help but feel that u owe me after what u did.sometimes,a small part of me feels like hurting you back by doing the same things with another guy.

its sick but i cant help it

im sorry if i poked around abit too much today.i realised that it wasnt completely about me n you.part of it is about you and her too.
im sorry.

loving you can sometimes be so hard.