its nt the end,but a new beginning

im the ultimate family girl.
19,going on 20 and i rather spend festive seasons with my family than with friends.boyfriend included:)i hope boyfriend can join us one day.
playing the piano and singing along,stuffing ourselves silly,playing stupid games,playing sparklers.i think these are things that i want to hold to every year,things that i will treasure.

so once again,its new year's eve and when everyone is out celebrating with friends and family,im at chiltern,waiting for the countdown.i think i have alot to be grateful and thankful for this year.

nainai got better.it was horrible at the beginning when she cried,scream and shouted in the night.and when yeye was so drain everyday.the listless eyes and the helplessness tt he feels.at least whatever was haunting her,be it memories of her mum or the fear of yeye leaving her is no longer there.i see her smile more now than i ever had.to the person up there,thanks for giving me the chance to spend another tangyuan festival with her.giving yeye hope that nainai becomes better.

my daddy:)
he's been wonderful,there were times where he screwed up but i can tell its because he is tired n exhausted.thanks for being there for me when i was down and needed the support tt i coudnt get frm anybody else.

boyfriend.
even though our ups are super ups and our downs are super down,this has been an eventful year with you.when nainai went into hospital,when i needed a break frm all the shit,he was always there for me.when i was struggling with exams,his calls n msgs cheered me up,encouraged me.insecurities might hv plagued our relationship this year but in someway or other,i think we have grown closer.the insecurities are still there but hey,i love you.thanks for trusting me with ur blog though im not visiting it.thanks for giving me the chance to be who i am when i have to put on so many different masks infrt of so many people.thanks for letting me cry when i am with u for no particular reason.and for letting me yell and throw my temper at u whenever im feeling down.

friends,especially dawn lim jia en:)
thanks for being there for me everytime i was down.there to listen to my insecurities,telling me things tt i nt necessarily like to hear but did me good.for showing me the different points of view that ppl look at things.may our friendship continue to blossom:)

B2 weirdos and hall friends
hall was fun with all of you.thanks for making it easier for me to ease into uni life.thanks for all the gossips,the stupid jokes,the inside jokes,the eyecandying,the teasing,the complaining.late night gossips,late night suppers,birthday celebrations.i love all of you*hugs*

yups.so much to be thankful for.i shall stop complaining about life.

so resolutions for next year.i wonder why ppl make resolutions when they are seldoms acheived.but still,i will try.

YOU
we have so much to do.so much to learn frm each other and so much to adapt to.thanks for being in my life.i dont want to be the jealous beech tt i am anymore,dont want to make life difficult for him anymore.either you learn to love him for who he is or let him go.but if you were to let him go,let him go nicely,even if it might hurt you.dont make the same mistake twice.dont make his mistake again.if you are going to love him.love him for who he is,religon and whole.at the end of nxt year,i hope tt i can come to a decisive conclusion.i want to keep to the promise that we made to each other,not even on special occasions should it be broken.i want to try to get my mum to accept you,i want you to be able to come for dinner with us soon.god knows where to start though.learn to control ur temper,dont let it out all on tt poor boy.
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family
i wanna be nicer to mum.understand where she is coming from.but deep down,i hope tt she will learn to accept me for who i am too.

studies
AHHH.nomore lala land.study hard.u are so god damn lucky tt ur CAP is a 3.5.push yourself to study.dont forget who u are in the midst of the busy place tt you are living in.

i dunno what else to challenge myself to.maybe by having so little resolutions,u can say tt more or less,i have no regrets in life.

let 2011 come and may it be an enjoyable year where i enter the 20s.let me grow to be more matured,learn to control my temper,focus on the things tt i want in life.i hope i can find my direction in life at the end of the year.
HAPPY NEW YEAR:)