I am feeling abit depressed,though I don't know why.
I think its got something to do with how I can't interact with my blockers properly. And its also got to do with how I can't plan my time properly. And it has also got to do with my obsession with certain people.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
touch ftw
Its weird how touch now has a completely different meaning for me.
Right now, I feel super happy and contended. What more can I ask for?
Friends who are always there for me, vicks,teo, meila, pinlang. The girls have been supporting me int their own way and they have really made a very big difference to my life. Its pretty amazing how I try to show that I am not emo but they find out anyhow. And when you talk about the reasons of emo-ing with them after you are done emo-ing, it feels kinda dumb that I emoed about such small little things. The things that the girls have done for me are really small but I feel the sincerity in each and everyone of the things they do. Like how pinlang dabao for me,how teo played touch even though she has never played before, how meila came down even though it was a very un-meila move.
Vicks ah vicks, thanks for being my friend. Thanks for picking up after me whenever I screw up, for being there when I needed someone to talk to. For guiding me in your own way when I was lost in touch. Sometimes the encouragement from this awesome girl really keeps me going strong.
The supportive ruggers, lin hui, eddie, johan, melmel
I think this group of guys will be the most awesome group of guys that I will ever know. They are similar yet different in their own way. I really wanna record down every single moment that I have spent with this group of guys. How it all started when we came up with IBG rules, the HTHTs that followed, the ice cream sharing. I want to tell this 4 guys how much I love them but it seems weird. I told that to johan anyway. Haha. It especially touched my heart when Johan took time off his lab to help us ref and to save my ass. It feels good to have Johan back in AB. I love side stepping him. Its like running into a bull dozer and that makes me very happy.
Lin hui has been totally awesome. If there is an award for most supportive senior, he should totally win it. He was there since day 1 of planning for IBG all the way to today.I think we would have died if not for linhui. How he came up with all the tatics, how we emoed about freshies, how we enjoyed being introverts at Master's house. There are still so much things that I can learn from him. I felt so lost when he wasn't at the field when we were setting up today. I am really glad that he moved into AB.
Eddie is one of a kind.Haha. I will miss him when he disappears into JCRC. It upsets me to see eddie being emo, and he is a pretty good influence( think 8am lecture)
So anyways,
debrief for Touch IBG.
Personally I felt that it was a big mess. No playing area, not enough cones, some scary seniors, being too small so people can't see you, the ambiguities of the games.
But talking to a few people made me feel that it was actually pretty well done.
Some points to think about
1. playing area too big, difficult to hear ref
2. people don't know the rules
I can't think of anything else, prolly cause its late. I shall discuss with my analysts tomorrow and come up with more suggestions to make it a better experience for my jie ban ren:))
Right now, I feel super happy and contended. What more can I ask for?
Friends who are always there for me, vicks,teo, meila, pinlang. The girls have been supporting me int their own way and they have really made a very big difference to my life. Its pretty amazing how I try to show that I am not emo but they find out anyhow. And when you talk about the reasons of emo-ing with them after you are done emo-ing, it feels kinda dumb that I emoed about such small little things. The things that the girls have done for me are really small but I feel the sincerity in each and everyone of the things they do. Like how pinlang dabao for me,how teo played touch even though she has never played before, how meila came down even though it was a very un-meila move.
Vicks ah vicks, thanks for being my friend. Thanks for picking up after me whenever I screw up, for being there when I needed someone to talk to. For guiding me in your own way when I was lost in touch. Sometimes the encouragement from this awesome girl really keeps me going strong.
The supportive ruggers, lin hui, eddie, johan, melmel
I think this group of guys will be the most awesome group of guys that I will ever know. They are similar yet different in their own way. I really wanna record down every single moment that I have spent with this group of guys. How it all started when we came up with IBG rules, the HTHTs that followed, the ice cream sharing. I want to tell this 4 guys how much I love them but it seems weird. I told that to johan anyway. Haha. It especially touched my heart when Johan took time off his lab to help us ref and to save my ass. It feels good to have Johan back in AB. I love side stepping him. Its like running into a bull dozer and that makes me very happy.
Lin hui has been totally awesome. If there is an award for most supportive senior, he should totally win it. He was there since day 1 of planning for IBG all the way to today.I think we would have died if not for linhui. How he came up with all the tatics, how we emoed about freshies, how we enjoyed being introverts at Master's house. There are still so much things that I can learn from him. I felt so lost when he wasn't at the field when we were setting up today. I am really glad that he moved into AB.
Eddie is one of a kind.Haha. I will miss him when he disappears into JCRC. It upsets me to see eddie being emo, and he is a pretty good influence( think 8am lecture)
So anyways,
debrief for Touch IBG.
Personally I felt that it was a big mess. No playing area, not enough cones, some scary seniors, being too small so people can't see you, the ambiguities of the games.
But talking to a few people made me feel that it was actually pretty well done.
Some points to think about
1. playing area too big, difficult to hear ref
2. people don't know the rules
I can't think of anything else, prolly cause its late. I shall discuss with my analysts tomorrow and come up with more suggestions to make it a better experience for my jie ban ren:))
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
loss for words
I am at a loss of words.
Chun sheng just passed away during NS. Even though I am not close to him, I feel quite affected.
These are the kind of things which you won't expect to happen to people that you know. But when it really does happen, there is this one moment where you don't believe that it did. I wasn't close to Chun Sheng, but I really respected him as a band leader and a senior. It was quite amazing how he did things without having to 'steal' the limelight.
I wonder how the others are feeling now.People who are much closer to him must feel so empty and lost. His family must be feeling so sad now. Its so hard to come to a closure this way.
I pray that everyone who knew Chun Sheng will remember him forever,may his spirit and way of doing things not be forgotten. He was a man who practised what he preached and let us remember that. I pray for his family and his friends to have the strength and courage to carry on. I pray that they will get the proper closure that they need. I pray for Chun Sheng's soul to rest in peace, knowing that he was loved and very much appreciated in this world.
I pray for simon that he will have wisdom to know when to stop pushing himself. I pray that god will bless him and keep him safe.
It suddenly occured to me how much I love tee. It be really hard to carry on without him. With him, I can really speak my mind and there is this level of comfortableness with him that I don't have with anybody else.I know that he won't judge me and I love him for that.
I pray that I will learn from this incident and treasure the people in my life more. I pray to be able to put myself in mummy's shoes and understand and accept her way of doing things. Help me not to be irritated with her and make the effort to show her that I still love her.
Remind me to love each and everyone of my family and friends and show it to them too.Help me live my life without regrets so that I won't feel that I didn't do enough when the day comes.
Chun sheng just passed away during NS. Even though I am not close to him, I feel quite affected.
These are the kind of things which you won't expect to happen to people that you know. But when it really does happen, there is this one moment where you don't believe that it did. I wasn't close to Chun Sheng, but I really respected him as a band leader and a senior. It was quite amazing how he did things without having to 'steal' the limelight.
I wonder how the others are feeling now.People who are much closer to him must feel so empty and lost. His family must be feeling so sad now. Its so hard to come to a closure this way.
I pray that everyone who knew Chun Sheng will remember him forever,may his spirit and way of doing things not be forgotten. He was a man who practised what he preached and let us remember that. I pray for his family and his friends to have the strength and courage to carry on. I pray that they will get the proper closure that they need. I pray for Chun Sheng's soul to rest in peace, knowing that he was loved and very much appreciated in this world.
I pray for simon that he will have wisdom to know when to stop pushing himself. I pray that god will bless him and keep him safe.
It suddenly occured to me how much I love tee. It be really hard to carry on without him. With him, I can really speak my mind and there is this level of comfortableness with him that I don't have with anybody else.I know that he won't judge me and I love him for that.
I pray that I will learn from this incident and treasure the people in my life more. I pray to be able to put myself in mummy's shoes and understand and accept her way of doing things. Help me not to be irritated with her and make the effort to show her that I still love her.
Remind me to love each and everyone of my family and friends and show it to them too.Help me live my life without regrets so that I won't feel that I didn't do enough when the day comes.
Monday, August 1, 2011
my grandma has dementia:(
i talked to the OT today.
so basically,i told her a few things.
I should probably describe my circumstances. I am 20 this year and my grandma has vascular dementia. My family lives with them so it has been affecting me quite alot. Its difficult to carry on with life normally especially when you see that the whole family is affected because of this one person. My mum and younger bro doesnt help out very often because its just not in them to do this kind of things. So its boils down to me, dad and grandpa. Grandma is exceptionally attached to grandpa so he bears he brunt of the disease.
1.the insomnia problem
So what denise, the ot said, was to keep her active in the day. This is so she wont sleep in the day and as a result, will be able to sleep at night. She suggested that if we can't wake her up by shaking her,then try to get her to stand up and walk around the house. If she has the problem of sitting down in the middle of nowhere,then try to put stools around the house. Alternatively, keep your hand on her bumbum to signify to her that she can't sit there. Can also hold her pants.
2.how yeye's negative attitude might hv an impact on her
Ok, this is something I observed. So what happens is that she will piss yeye off,yeye will get pissed off(duh) and yeye will show some negative body languages to her which will in return,aggravate her more and the cycle continues. Denise said that what I observed could have been real. Which brings us to the point that yeye probably needs time off.So when he gets angry,she suggest that he should take like 5/10min breaks away from nainai. Because it will do the both of them good.
3.why she pinches yeye
Ah ha. Tricky issue. So there can be a few reasons why she does this. Denise thinks that it might be a form of disciplinary action for him being away from her(in her context) It could also be like the vicious cycle that happened that made her unhappy hence the pinching. How to solve it?good question..
4.what we can do with her
According to Denise again, she responds better to things with bigger movements, things that will actually wear her out physically. This might be a good thing because she will become tired so that she can sleep at night. She suggested that we play balloons with her, she played bowling with her today.
5.what we can do to help yeye
When nainai calls him, we can actually try to distract her by talking to her.Most of the time,when she calls,it means that her needs are not being met. So we can prompt her by asking her questions like if she is hungry and such. She probably calls like that because her vocab is becoming smaller.
6.why she keeps calling him
The answer above probably fits this question too. And it might also be due to the fact that she feels yeye not paying as much attention to her as he used too.
I remember I once read that when a person with dementia does something nasty, its not the person doing it, its the disease. I really hope that someone who feels the same way as I do finds my post useful. Its actually a post for me to consolidate my thoughts but if it helps others, why not?
I love my grandma, i really do. Just that dementia is quite trying on family members.
so basically,i told her a few things.
I should probably describe my circumstances. I am 20 this year and my grandma has vascular dementia. My family lives with them so it has been affecting me quite alot. Its difficult to carry on with life normally especially when you see that the whole family is affected because of this one person. My mum and younger bro doesnt help out very often because its just not in them to do this kind of things. So its boils down to me, dad and grandpa. Grandma is exceptionally attached to grandpa so he bears he brunt of the disease.
1.the insomnia problem
So what denise, the ot said, was to keep her active in the day. This is so she wont sleep in the day and as a result, will be able to sleep at night. She suggested that if we can't wake her up by shaking her,then try to get her to stand up and walk around the house. If she has the problem of sitting down in the middle of nowhere,then try to put stools around the house. Alternatively, keep your hand on her bumbum to signify to her that she can't sit there. Can also hold her pants.
2.how yeye's negative attitude might hv an impact on her
Ok, this is something I observed. So what happens is that she will piss yeye off,yeye will get pissed off(duh) and yeye will show some negative body languages to her which will in return,aggravate her more and the cycle continues. Denise said that what I observed could have been real. Which brings us to the point that yeye probably needs time off.So when he gets angry,she suggest that he should take like 5/10min breaks away from nainai. Because it will do the both of them good.
3.why she pinches yeye
Ah ha. Tricky issue. So there can be a few reasons why she does this. Denise thinks that it might be a form of disciplinary action for him being away from her(in her context) It could also be like the vicious cycle that happened that made her unhappy hence the pinching. How to solve it?good question..
4.what we can do with her
According to Denise again, she responds better to things with bigger movements, things that will actually wear her out physically. This might be a good thing because she will become tired so that she can sleep at night. She suggested that we play balloons with her, she played bowling with her today.
5.what we can do to help yeye
When nainai calls him, we can actually try to distract her by talking to her.Most of the time,when she calls,it means that her needs are not being met. So we can prompt her by asking her questions like if she is hungry and such. She probably calls like that because her vocab is becoming smaller.
6.why she keeps calling him
The answer above probably fits this question too. And it might also be due to the fact that she feels yeye not paying as much attention to her as he used too.
I remember I once read that when a person with dementia does something nasty, its not the person doing it, its the disease. I really hope that someone who feels the same way as I do finds my post useful. Its actually a post for me to consolidate my thoughts but if it helps others, why not?
I love my grandma, i really do. Just that dementia is quite trying on family members.
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