Touch rug is over.
No tries scored, no matches won.
Depressing? Kind of.
But I still stand by what I say, there are somethings that can never been taken away from us no matter what happens. And the journey with the girls was a wonderful one. We grew together as a team, learn together, made mistakes together, laughed together. The memories that I have will always be etched in my head.

How we played our first friendly against EH and how I cramped up.
The shit that we stir, the tough times in camp, the honesty between us all.
I don't easily feel comfortable with people but this is one of the groups that I really enjoy.
I am very grateful for the team. Not many teams will listen to such an inexperienced captain and learn together with me. We have come a long way and I am really proud of each and everyone of you:)

Training with Raihan has also taught me alot. How I feel about Raihan cannot be put into words. Its this immense sense of gratitude and appreciation that I really want to show/tell him but it just can't come out. The only reason why I felt horrible after Shears was because I felt that I let Raihan down. Ok, I was disappointed with myself too. Because of him, touch has become an even more important part in my life. It is him who made me see how intelligent the whole game can be and make me love the sport even more. I hope he felt my sincerity the way I felt his. And I hope he enjoyed coaching us as much as I did enjoy coaching by him.

1 more week to CNY.
Tee is still in Australia. I'm not sure what I want in life anymore. Talking to Linhui helped but I still feel lost. What if me and him can never reach a compromise? I don't think its fair that I should have to leave everything that I have behind just so he can go pursue his dream. Neither do I feel that he should let go of his so that I can have what I want. It scares me that what we want is so different. Its just weird. I don't want him to fail anymore because I finally understand how much this means to him. q0 years is way too long. Sometimes I wish that I am still single, that I fell for someone whose ideas are more in line with me.
I hope he comes back soon, at least I hope the remaining 4 weeks pass quickly. Maybe seeing him will make me feel better.

Sometimes I can't help but wish that I sincerely believe that god has everything nicely planned out for me.
Nothing much I can do right now. I miss touch, I miss the girls. Time to study before I lag behind again.

The world is kinda depressing huh.