General inertia to start work as usual. Zzz.

Its funny how life changes. I am no longer as close to the B2 girls as I once was. Things are just different and its abit weird that I'm no longer in soccer. Weird that they think E is such an awesome captain when me n V used to dislike her so much. But oh wells, things change and people change.

Its also weird how the 'important' people in my life has changed too. I used to think that the B2 girls were people whom I could stick to forever, the t-ruggers were people that I felt so comfortable with. The photos that I find dear now says alot, perspectives changes I guess. But the memories always stay. Its not something that I will willingly let go off. Neither will I let go of the relationship that we use to have but like I said, life changes.

I'm worried about my future. What if I graduate this semester? What will I work as? What do I want to work as? And I don't seem to be getting good data results. I didn't get SSS1207 too. I guess I just have to work doubly hard. Remember how it felt when I didn't get my SS? Yup, I will remember how that felt, the feeling where you knew that you tried your best and that you have no regrets.

And I love the boyfriend. He is such a dear. Even after how childish I behaved (it never occured to me that I am childish). Its a horrible feeling to disappoint him so I am never going to do it again. Fuzz Wuzz has been delivered. I like him already, simply because he is from the boyfriend. I don't think I'm ready to get married, not when I can have such serious doubts and entertain such silly thoughts. Maybe I will be ready when the boyfriend comes back, its nice to think that we will have our little love nest where we can snuggle and do whatever we want. Even nicer to think of the boyfriend being the daddy of my kids. I'm sure he will be awesome. Jiayou for flight bf:)

I need to stop writing so choppy-ly. Haha

Back to UROPS. I love it, but it can be such a hassle.