I am even more determined to work hard now that I realized how horrible it is to have disappointed him. Its funny that this affected me so much, its not so much of the threat he made but more of the thought that I didn't perform up to his expectations.

I only feel this way when I disappoint people that I love alot, like my family or Tee, sometimes even though I don't even know why they are disappointed. He isn't family but I owe alot to him. He taught me things that I never learned in my 14 years of schooling, skills which would make be a useful person to society in the future. I was proud when he got me to pack stuff for the clean up and even more proud when he asked me to be involve in Kranji.

Thanks TK for being my listening ear and advising me when I really had no one to talk to. If you must know, I was on the verge of breaking down and I did. Somehow, being both infj, I feel this connection to her. I hope she feels it too.

To the two girls, good luck. Quoting Tee, we can be colleagues but not close friends. I'm seldom wrong when I judge whether I can be good friends with people (only wrong once) and I'm sorry to say that I didn't really think we be that awesome buddies when I first met them. Call me a J.

This girl is flying solo now. But flying solo doesn't mean being mean or stepping over others to get to my goal.