when will i learn not to wait until the last minute?
now i feel so unprepared for 1102 and 2220.

i dont know what went wrong but i felt like i really did study quite alot during this reading week.and i have been doing consistent work.vicki really scared me and made me emo when she knew all the small details that i didnt.i feel like im just going in there to hamptam.

geog is as screwed.i hope karst comes out.if not im so dead.i havent even touched the calculations part yet.

i really need to set my goals right.i need to plan my time better.even if im nt gonna take honours,i dont want my CAP to go below 3.5.i was suppose to pull it up this semester.i really want to keep my options open.PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.let me do ok tomorrow.i dont know if i deserve it.but i think at least,i really really tried.

today shall be a productive day.
its MY day, MY life.I determine how its gonna be.YAY.
i have a list of to-dos and im gonna complete it.
OCD FTW

trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.In all ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

its my wish that one day, i will be able to assimilate into you and your group of friends and your family.then, i will be able to be myself and nt be afraid tt people will think tt im atas or dao or fierce.i want to be part of your world the way that jobi is a part of OQL.and i want you to be part of my world the way OQL is a part of jobi's. till then, all i can do is try to impress your friends and family and pray hard that the day will come soon. because,it really means alot to me.

help. i feel very confused and stressed out again. it feels tt me and tee dont need each other anymore.we hvnt gone out properly for such a long time already. i feel that he have so much things on now.like he has so much friends and tt he has been going out with them so often.but even if i ask him to go out with me,i dont know what we can do.so i shouldnt ask him to go out with me right?the thing is he doesnt seems tt he feels tt we dont hv enough time for each other.i cant concentrate. i dont know what to do.i dont want/dare to break up with him.but i dunno if this is going the wrong way.i should end it now if i think tt it is.the thing is that i dunno.i still can remember how horrible it was tt time when we broke up.how can things change so suddenly?i cant concentrate and its driving me crazy. im scared tt the correct choice would be to break up with him.i dont wwant it to happen.i dont have the courage to make it happen too.i dont want him to be the wrong choice after all that we hv gone through. how can he be the wrong choice after all that we hv gone through?but then tts the idea tt i get frm him.its like he feels tt he made the wrong choice.tt im just this small part in his life.i dont want to be together just because of whatever things we have been through.i want it to be real. are our love languages really tt different?or is it that i dont understand him?or that we hv lost that connection tt we once used to have? i really dont wanna lose it.what if he doesnt know if its the right decision to hold on also?what if he,like me isnt sure of where this relationship is going?