Suddenly reminded of this one time where I woke up in the middle of the night and saw grandma in the kitchen. I forgot if I made her a cup of milo, but we were sitting there and talking over milo and biscuits.

I kinda wished I was more sensible and matured when grandma was better. Maybe I would have gotten to know her better. But still, maybe it was her that made me grow up.

WELL,
I think we know who is the one who has issues:(

Why let small things make you so unhappy? Wasn't his intentions pretty clear?

You are forever screwing your own life. I need to learn how to trust him and believe him.

I don't know how I feel about BF's promotion. I am happy for him, really am and from the bottom of my heart. Proud of him too. Like senior of his seniors now. Awesome shit.

But besides that, I don't know how else I feel about it. I guess its good, but I have my doubts too. All I want now is for him to come back and hug me. Then everything will feel better. I am looking forward to him coming back, and I hope he feels the same way too.

Its always the same issue of feeling something and not being sure whether he feels it back. Even after 7 years, I still feel this way.

Hi, I miss you and I hope you miss me too:/