i think the world is a very funny place.
alot of funny things can happen.like shit happens.good things happen to.
maybe we cant just judge whether its shit or is it something good.
mum can be super anal.i mean,if u wanted to invite them to stay,then think through it properly before you ask.not ask then regret.

quarelling over the dining table was a dumb move.but i understand both sides.i hope this is a blessing in disguse.maybe more unhapiness will happen if they really did move in.
anycase,i dont know what would happen if mum is nt on talking terms with fi yiyi.
mum will probably go into depression again,fi yiyi will probably feel very guilty and bad and i would be so caught in the middle cuz fi yiyi is actually someone who means alot to me.she is everything of what mum should be but is not.is not tt my mum isnt a good mum but fi yiyi fills alot of voids and gaps in me tt mummy doesnt.like how she told me tt im olde enough and tt she trusts my judgement.like how i can ask her opinion on things such as fashion,bgr.like how she teaches me how to cook and bake.like how i admire the way she gets along with everyone,esp uncle kc's family.

lets just hope tt this is a blessing in disguise.
i believe fi yiyi understands mummy's character and wont be too angry with her for what happened.

how to interact with your boyfriend's mother

teach me:(

and so we are left with ONE IHG

time passes so quickly.before you know it,im at the end of ihg.i would be lying if i said tt i was happy with ihg performances.its not about the results tt we get but its the process tt counts.after each IHG tt i take part in,i wonder to myself if we would hv done better had i taken the responsibilty to come down for trainings,go for KE fit etc etc.

la asked how come we try so hard when others dont care.i know what she means,yet im guilty of it.i guess we try so hard because we dont want to let ourselves down.even if the team performs badly, you can still say to yourself 'hey,u tried your best'.but if even you heck it,you will feel even more horrible.which is kinda what i felt after track.i kept asking myself if things would have been better if we had trained the full 100m instead of just the baton passing.because of tt,we let go of a freaking 4th place.i thought it was all about trying my best.in the end,i did but life just likes screwing us up.lets just take this as a lesson.its over anyway.im sorry trackers,esp alycia,shadrina and arjun.i dont know if it was my fault but once again,fault doesnt change the way things are.

given a choice,i would turn back time and try to attend trainings more regularly.i want to inspire ppl with this sucky feeling i hv within me now.sadly,i dont think i will hv the chance to anymore.

but still,i love hall and felt the warmness n fuzziness of hall even when i was at home at 12mn last night.i really want to keep the friends i hv made in hall.

had very fun times in hall once again:)

flowers,notes,chocolate,pranks.haha.i feel so loved when i see all the flowers n notes.plus dad's sms.so sweet.i love my friends.dinner with tee was cool too.so seldoms we go to somewhere new so we kinda walk alot.spider sense my head.too bad no home cooked dinner.haha.but seriously,i kinda knew he wont do it cuz he is not tt kind of ppl.still,i still think tt its pretty sweet:)who doesnt want a bf tt can cook?but hey,i love him.

then there was the baking:)sia didnt come:(lala disappear:(tas went home:(
so given my ocd and iwantitmyway character,i was slightly pissed off and anal when pl offered her so many opinions and acted like she is incharge.i thought i was over tt age.see,i hv a bad side too.luckily the guys came to diffuse the tension.i wanted to make something special for my tee but couldnt think of anything.aeroplane quite fail.

the guys were telling me to continue with ivp.im abit scared.i dont hv background plus they seem pretty scary to me.but i like the feeling on the field.during ihg,i kept wondering if i still dared to dive.but tt day,it was like instinct tt i i dived.i didnt realised i dived till it was over.i love tt feeling.but i let in 2 goals(after reflectin for a long time)i love the sport alot.

something not so happy happen during the friendly with TH but im over it.the take away point is tt the more you know of a person,you will eventually realise tt they will let you down sooner or later.its not a bad/sad thing i guess.its just life.kinda shows you tt nobody is perfect.and tt the people whom you really like n care about are the ppl who can let you down the most.

there;s no such thing as BFF or friends forever too.all the warm fuzzys tt i hv mean so much to me cuz there are so many memories in there.so what if they are just memories?they still mean alot to me.reminds me to treasure what i have now.like my hall friends.i really wish i could keep them for life.but i think the friendship might fade after i leave hall.so i really hv to hold on to them so tight now.like what sia said,we'll just see what happens.

tts life,turning 20 in 2 weeks time for me.im not sad or anything.maybe even glad tt i hv come to take life in such a calm manner

have u ever had this feeling?
you hv so much to write about,so much u have been thinking about.
but when u sit infrt of blogger,ur mind goes blank.

im tired.
have two CAs tmr and i just feel like nuaing.i hv been doing too much of nuaing.but seriously,2 CAs after CNY 5 day break?dont work man.