It's a reminder to be nice to the people that I have been taking for granted. And that there is much more in life than what I have been obsessing with over the past week. 

It's funny. I thought I would be happy with just a honours degree. But now a hons degree alone isn't enough. I kinda want to end the 27384817 years of education with As. To end it off with a bang and prove to myself that I can do it. And I don't think I have been studying as hard this sem and this makes me angsty when exams approach. I shall not repeat this mistake next sem. 

I will put in 100% for EVERYTHING. Not just for fyp or my studies. Everything. 

Guess it's also a reminder that I shouldn't be so scared of this or that happening. Things happen and there's no warning for such things. I should go do whatever I want to and not have regrets. 

To-dos:

1. Lit paper for NSS

2. Catch Siva and ask about hsc in US and confirm methods

3. FYP practical and readings

4. Settle FYP new stuff: morph and lab

5. Discuss trip with Dawn and co. 

And meet ups. And help out more at home. 

Let's just go face the exams with confidence:)

Started feeling slightly more confident about exams last night all of a sudden. Kinda freaked out when I took out my year 3 notes and realised that this sem is pretty understudied. But oh well. This surge of confidence feels nice. Haha. Can't wait for Friday, everything will be over. Then after that it's just one more sem to go. 

Btw. I'm still lazing in bed. 

Reading week has always been crap. 

This year is especially worse because no more hall, no more friends to mug hardcore with and no bf to keep me sane (by bringing me out and letting me throw temper at him). I'm trying really hard not to be edgy. 

Pms (I suspect tmr), a failed day spent on spp page and not having any significant change made me pretty angst and tired. Haven't felt this shag since a long time. This is one of the times where I wished I had alone time in hall and where I can cry without having any reason to, it's therapeutic ok. 

Seriously, shag balls. Stupid species page and format. Part of me wants to go back and make it perfect but I don't think I should. It's really wasting time when no major change has been done. 

I feel bad for snapping at people. This always always happens. I never learn do I. Especially when it's mum and dad. Always trying their best to make everything good for me and I have to be unappreciative. I'll apologize tmr. You suck sometimes. 

Awesome night out with the bros. Weird in their own ways but such nice and sweet people. Felt good reminiscing the silly things we did in hall. All the seemingly trival things that are still etched into our memory. 

And there's always Eddie to make things more interesting. Like how we trespassed into a condo so he could throw his phone into the pool. Haha. This is the awesome thing about hanging out with guys. You come up with a stupid idea, they go along with it. But when it's dangerous, they stop you from doing it. So fun hanging out with them. 

Hall is still a big part of my life and always will be. 

Fucking tired. 

Not a good day. Forceps was missing. Blogpost didn't publish on fyp blog and no drafts were saved. I spent about an hour on that post. 

Angsty like shit.  

Slightly disturbing that tee was so drunk today. Well, at least he had the sense to do it in camp and not outside. It seems hypocritical for me to be annoyed when I drink too. But the difference is I don't drink till I'm that drunk. I know when to stop. I think he does too but I can't help but feel annoyed and worried especially after the Thu case.

Well it's just harmless fun once in awhile right? Like how I drink with Dawn and co. 

I'm just worried because I'm his gf and it's kind of my job to worry for him. I can't expect him to live life the way I want him to. 

I'm not going to stop being annoyed but we'll grow. Like we always do. So either he stops this drinking till super drunk thing or I'll just continue being annoyed everytime he does it. No biggie.

Oh. I want abs. So I'm gonna train for it. Heh.