I’ll fall in love with you in the summertime. Maybe July 3rd. Does
that work with your schedule? I mean, it just seems like such a good
time to do it, what with the holiday and all. I’ll kiss you the day I
meet you and think that I’m really setting my life in motion or
something. I’ll kiss you up against a wall or on the floor or in my bed
or in public. I’ll pretend I’m a teenager again and trick myself into
feeling so many things! On the Fourth of July, you’ll wear a tie dye
tank top on some rooftop and we’ll hold hands all day and our friends
will stare at us smiling at each other like, “OMG, I’m so happy for
their love!” We’ll get red, white, and wasted and watch the fireworks
together.
In the fall, the weather will be getting colder but everything else
will feel warm. After all, love IS a sauna! It really is. It feels super
good at first, like a detox that feels like an orgasm, and then it
starts to feel too hot and sticky, so you have to get out before you
faint! In the fall, it will still feel like a blissed-out detox. I will
know your body very well by now. It’ll start to look like a worn map
with wears and tears (ew) and I’ll know exactly what buttons to push.
The next step is getting to know the ins and outs of your mind but we’ll
save that for the winter when we’re cold, bored, and feeling fat and
unsexy.
Oh, shoot. It’s the winter already. Gosh, it sure does feel great to
be loved by someone in December. All the things that could potentially
make you feel lonely bring you so much joy. “You wanna play Christmas
music? Go ahead ’cause I’m in love! It’s 35 degrees? Yay! I’m seeing my
family in two days for two solid weeks? Bring it!” When I go home for
the holidays, I’ll feel like I’m in a cocoon simply because I’m in a
relationship. I’ll walk in there feeling extra confident and proudly
proclaim to my family, “I’m in a stable relationship right now so you
can all just breathe a giant sigh of relief. Things are going great!”
I’ll miss you, I’ll live-text you my family being insane. I’ll feel
solace in knowing that someone is waiting for me back in my city.
There’ll be sex waiting for me the moment I land. I’ll spend the next
month with you in hibernation getting to know your every thought, and
sometimes it will overwhelm me and I’ll wonder if I made the right
decision. I’ll go two months without seeing my best friend. You’ll
swallow me whole in the winter.
In the spring, I’ll know how you like to eat your sandwiches and I’ll
know how to get you mad and I’ll know how to get you off. You’ll be
like a machine I know how to operate perfectly. When the weather gets
warmer, it’ll feel like a love fog has lifted and I’ll be able to see
clearly again. My best friend and I will talk every other day. I’ll have
nights out without you. I’ll fantasize fleetingly about other people.
We’ll be comfortable enough with each other to say things we’ll later
regret. Sometimes the thought of loving you for another 365 days seems
impossible but then other times it’s all I can ever imagine doing. I’ll
think about the day when I first met you and how I felt like I had this
entire person to just discover and love. Now I’ve discovered you and
I’ve loved you. What now? It’s okay to ask yourself these questions.
They’re totally valid. It doesn’t mean anything terrible. A relationship
that’s lasted 365 days leaves you with a series of question marks and
the answer to all of them is usually “I’M STICKING WITH YOU!” So you
needn’t worry. Needn’t worry at all.
